SPECIAL GLASSES by Billy Collins I had to send away for them because they are not available in any store. They look the same as any sunglasses with a light tint and silvery frames, but instead of filtering out the harmful rays of the sun, they filter out the harmful sight of you -- you on the approach, you waiting at my bus stop, you, face in the evening window. Every morning I put them on and step out the side door whistling a melody of thanks to my nose and my ears for holding them in place, just so, singing a song of gratitude to the lens grinder at his heavy bench and to the very lenses themselves because they allow it all to come in, all but you. How they know the difference between the green hedges, the stone walls, and you is beyond me, yet the schoolbuses flashing in the rain do come in, as well as the postman waving and the mother and daughter dogs next door, and then there is the tea kettle about to play its chord -- everything sailing right in but you, girl. Yes, just as the night air passes through the screen, but not the mosquito, and as water swirls down the drain, but not the eggshell, so the flowering trellis and the moon pass through my special glasses, but not you. Let us keep it that way, I say to myself, as I lay my special glasses on the night table, pull the chain on the lamp, and say a prayer -- unlike the song -- that I will not see you in my dreams. ~ from The Trouble With Poetry: And Other Poems (Random House, 2005).
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The way I see it, there are two ways of reading this poem.
1. With standard glasses, for a general impression.
Perhaps the speaker is trying his darndest to get over a break-up, or to avoid falling in love with someone. His lighthearted, carefree tone, as he whistles “a melody of thanks” to his nose and ears, and sings “a song of gratitude” to the lens grinder and even the lenses themselves, is novel and amusing. Yet we sense his vulnerability, his determination to protect himself. He seems to be in denial.
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